Monday, April 26, 2010
I'm so bloody hell pissed right now. argh. YOU always think the negatively. i wear it once in a blue moon, unhappy already. at least i didnt wear it so fucking often right?! and i merely just head out with my girlfriend slightly later than the time i tell you. do you need to call & ask as if i promised you to head home & that point of time? do you? and when i decided to head home early, and YOU which promised me that you would come over when im reaching my house, ended up? you decided to stay at home till late. what's this again?
and if photos are real, you might as well go talk to the photos. since you think that thru photos you can know someone. and not thru personality. control is care? YOU control way too much, over the limits & you dont even know. always think that for my own good. OR i should say for your own good. cause im yours. cannot let other people go near, see. like just now, i just ask you go eat first, cause im still not done yet. you thinks that im having lunch with the guy not you. WTF is this thinking? why cant you think that way that i ask you to go eat first then i join you after that? WHY?!
always want ME to listen to you. did you ever listen to what i tell you? no most of the time you dont. cause you're think that you're better than me. im stupid, useless right? you dont believe what i say, you dont heed to my advice, you dont ask for my advice, you dont. im just a girlfriend which special status, who doesnt share woes, only happiness & quarrels. you always makes me feel that im stupid in front of you & i hate it. fucking hate it.
then now you think that i cant wait to see you go into army. THEN WTF FOR ME TO ASK YOU GO PASS YOUR FUCKING NAFA FOR?!!!!! might as well dont say anything, let you go in in june. wtf wtf wtf. think negatively AGAIN. and when you say you wanna buy ciggs even though you promised to quit smoking. did i say no? i even let you buy the ciggs even though i fucking hate it when you smoke.fucking destest every single about ciggs. let you buy one pack only, ended up you bought dont know how many new packs. did i scold you? no i didnt.
then what about me? i only wear that maxi dress once in a blue moon. take photos. i DID pull up okay? that dress meant to be low cut, no matter how much i pull up, it will still go down. do i wear low cut everyday? NO, i dont. BUT you smoke every fucking single day without fail. but did i say anything about it? NO, i didnt. then why do you have to make a big fuss over this issue about me wearing the dress?! most of the time, what you want i give you. but what you given to me? other than spending time with me. havent i been good for the past few months? what's the point of me being good?! you dont praise me, no rewards, nothing. even if i want, i have to ask, this is so embarrassing dont you know that? i got no motivation at all and yet i have to do it.
DONT YOU THINK YOU'RE GOING TOO OVERBOARD?!?!
im on the verge of breaking down i swear. One day, when my limits are up, patience are gone. thats it...
at 12:08 AM