you said hello, inside me im screaming i love you

2010-12-27T14:53:00.000+08:00

Guys, do u realize that the girl who is holding onto u now is PERFECT in her own special way?

The way she laughs..
The way she sleeps..
The way she sulks..
The way she smiles..
The way she cries..
The way she thinks of you..
The way she tries to please you...
The way she sacrifices for you..
The way she wants to understand you..
The way she's loving you with all her heart!

Always remember that she can always get up and walk away,getting someone else who can loves her more.There might be someone out there who is willing to love her more than you are loving her now, fulfill her every needs and loves her as much as she loves you. Or maybe loves her more than she loves you but definitely loving her more than you do! For all you know, there might already be someone out there wooing her, be it from a distance or as a gentleman. But she is rejecting, because she believes in perfect love.

For whom she will share her joys n tears together with.
For whom she promise to be faithful to
For whom she will commit herself into.
To her, you're her perfect love!

Understand that. Guys, you might be thinking that the love is fading. You can't find the freshness between the two of you. Everything is stale to you now. Everywhere seems the same to you. You said "been there done that". So you went and look for another. Imagine this. Behind her back, you're hugging and kissing another girl. When you see her today, you do the same, but you still see love in her eyes, while others are just some flings. Do you feel the hurt? Can you feel the guilt?

For you must know that every new thing brings an excitement to us. Only to be bored and sick of it after we're so used being together. She might not be feeling the hurt now, because she doesn't know.She might be feeling something's not right, because she can sense it.But she's still holding on to you

Not because she's stupid,
Not because she's dumb
Not because she's a fool. but because
She believes you will not break her full-hearted heart.
She believes you will not let her tears flow.
She believes you will keep your promises.
She believes this is love!

She loves you not because you are pleasant looking, sweet talker, or that you have 5cs. She loves you for who you are. Your every touch, every word you say, everything you do. She was born imperfect. Everyone is! Only what she wants from you is almost perfect! And she knows she can't do it alone. It needs two hands to clap. Guys, for her, being the upmost girlfriend is to endure your every moves, your every moodswings, your every words and actions. Even when dealing with the most unbearable pain, she will bear it for your sake but once she knows that the time is up, she will leave you with the most unforgettable painful memories you both had, from the sweetest to the very last moment she had to leave, because of your doings

Guys, cherish and appreciate your girl. Don't break her fragile heart. She is the only one who can loves you this way. You won't wanna regret letting go of that special girl you have. For everything she has done for you,the least you can do is to give her unconditional love as she has given to you because you should know, her love and sacrifice doesn't mean forever. When she finally realise that you are not worth her love, she will leave you for the one who deserves her love. Guys, don't ever leave the one you love, for the one you like because one day, the one you like will leave you, for the one they love..

2010-10-20T18:48:00.005+08:00

Before heading downstairs for dinner with my mum, i shall blog!
The only thing that makes me happy which is i gotten myself a full time job! which is at tampines! Pay wise, not bad too. More of sales kind of job. Job scope is to help people to find jobs. working in a job agency what! of course help people whose jobless to find jobs.

Starting work next monday. which left a few days time! In a mad rush of hunting clothes. i got not much of formal or work dress you see. just spent a bomb on blazer, work pants. and there's more to come!! MY MONEY AHHHHH!!! :(

Will be heading down to their HQ to sign the contract, Yvonne accompanying me which is great! Cause i dont have to be so scared and i'll have more confidence! hahahha. after that, we shall go far east to shop for my clothes. -.-

Alright, Overdued pictures again! Going down to meet mum now! heh.

2010-10-15T12:33:00.002+08:00

I'm soooooooooo bored. Other than deciding what should i eat for lunch., what show to watch, what time baby calling me, mum buying what for dinner, shop online spend $$, i got absolute nothing to do. basically im rotting at home. -.-
Desperately looking for full time jobs. Suddenly i feel that school is good, i dont have to think what to do everyday. I want a job real badly, cause i get buy new clothes, i wont get my time wasted like that and most of all i get money!!!
i got high expectations though, location cannot be too far, timing cannot work on weekends, pay must be good enough. ah whatever. geez.

On a happier note, my boy doesnt get confinement! he's having another block leave in dec. and he's coming back tomorrow!! :D

2010-08-15T23:59:00.010+08:00

Haven been update since July. About 2months have passed. my boy is gonna POP soon! Going overseas during his block leave.

Gotta myself a job at Praise in Bugis. i bought 2 tees from them before getting my paycheck! tsk. ohwell. staff price at least! heh. And also, i won liese bubble hair color! how lucky can i get!

Very very very overdued pictures.

THE DAY THAT MY SUGARBOY WENT IN. :(
its okay, his confinement has ended!

2010-07-05T01:15:00.009+08:00

I know i haven been updating for a long long time.

Here's some overdued pictures. :)

One of the album: http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=176146&id=678922360&l=5a6a1f4d1d

I haven been shopping a lot lately, me likey. Cant wait for my pay to come!!!!
& USS im coming! MONEY FLY~~

2010-06-07T00:11:00.007+08:00

PICTURES SPAM ONCE & FOR ALL.
KL TRIP, SUGARBOY'S GRAD DAY, DATE, OUTING WITH GIRLFRIENDS.

2010-05-24T23:36:00.002+08:00

Hello everybody, my life is so fucked up now. Screw my life. im sooooo detesting my current life now. its okay, now would be fine soon enough. what else i cant take it anyway?

School was great somehow. looking forward to wed's class since zoann says the teacher is coooool. hahah. would be awesome if she's good, i wouldnt mind waking up at 7.30am just for her.

alright. pictures next time when im not so screwed. :)

2010-05-17T00:00:00.001+08:00

HELLO DARLING!!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!

WISH YOU GET A BOYFRIEND SOON. NO BOYFRIEND NEVERMIND, I'LL STILL SAYANG YOU OKAY?! YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU. YOU'RE IMPORTANT TOO ALRIGHT?!

2010-05-16T21:36:00.004+08:00

I cant believe that school is actually starting tomorrow. omg. scary shit. another shit thing is i gotta wake up at 7.30am cause i need to be in school by 9am. omfggggg. im so dead.

I hate my job. i dont want to work anymore. isnt fun. bores me to core. sit there all day long doesnt make me happy at all. geez. :(

anyway, tomorrow is my jessalyn's birthday. she's old. heading out with her. shall take many many photos! hahahhaha. i think thats the happiest thing happen to me for tomorrow. -.-

went to helipad last saturday. Drama started when jessalyn got drunk. Drama mama seriously. omg. gonna make sure it wont happen EVER again, get it jess?

okay, something for you guys. to lose weight more effectively.

For blood type O, their diet profile is high protein foods - meat eaters.
Food that help: seafood, salt, liver, red meat, spinach, broccoli.
Food to avoid: purpose: wheat, corn, lentils, cabbage, cauliflower.

For blood type A, their dief profile should be more vegetarian style
Food that help: soy foods, vegetables, pineapples
Food to avoid: meat, dairy, kidney beans, lima beans, wheat

For blood type B, their diet profile is balanced omnivore
Food that help: greens, eggs, venison, liver, licorice, tea.
Food to avoid : corn, lentil, peanuts, seeds, buckwheat, CHICKEN.

For blood type AB, their diet profile is mixed diet in moderation
Food that help: tofu, seafood, dairy, greens, kelp, pineapple
Food to avoid for: red meat, kidney beans, seeds, corn, buckwheat.

Lastly, pictures!!

2010-05-12T18:38:00.002+08:00

Im starting school in less than a week's time. soooo not looking forward to it. gaaah. Didnt went for the orientation today. dont see the point of going. plus its 9am in the morning!!! omfg. hopefully there's nice people there. MUST study hard this time & pass with flying colors! mummy's money cannot be wasted. school fees so expensive. idiot. wonder how many people went for the orientation.. hope there aint much!

Wonder what kind of people will be there. Wonder what time school starts on Monday. bet it would be 9am. tsk. its Jessalyn tan's birthday too! haven got the time to get her any presents, i think i'll just treat her to some good food, when i get my pay. im so broke now, everyone has gotten their paycheck expect us. tsk.

im hungry & bored to tears. Got to work tomorrow which is sad but on happier note, im ending work at 6pm. my first pay from starhub isnt here yet and here am i thinking of quitting the job. -.- seriously, i hate sitting there all day long making calls, cope up in a office. can dieeeeee. :( whatever, one step at a time.

2010-04-27T13:59:00.000+08:00

Officially started work on monday. it was awfully tiring. wake up early, end work late, go home eat sleep. machiam no life like that, me dont like. but what to do, pay wise is good compared to others, timing wise is commit 16hours per week that's it, environment wise is not bad, able to use internet, able to slack whenever you like. WHERE TO FIND FOR STUDENTS LIKE US. not including those "models" of course.

Met up with jessalyn last Saturday which explain on the photo spam you guys will see later on, or you guys have already seen it in FB. As usual, spent a lot on FOOD, yes solely on food. we're gluttons i know. side track, i effing love my maxi dress AND IM GETTING ANOTHER ONE. im getting my hair done next week if no delays, so no more frizzy ugly hair okay jazzy? -.-

For now, i need to save some cash for the KL trip at the end of the month. hopefully i will get those cheap cheap nice nice pretty pretty clothes. gotta start work at 11am tomorrow!!! OMG. my dark rings....oh well, forget it. there's something call concealer or eye masks.

im gonna put face mask after baby reach my house & sleep!!

2010-04-26T00:08:00.002+08:00

I'm so bloody hell pissed right now. argh. YOU always think the negatively. i wear it once in a blue moon, unhappy already. at least i didnt wear it so fucking often right?! and i merely just head out with my girlfriend slightly later than the time i tell you. do you need to call & ask as if i promised you to head home & that point of time? do you? and when i decided to head home early, and YOU which promised me that you would come over when im reaching my house, ended up? you decided to stay at home till late. what's this again?

and if photos are real, you might as well go talk to the photos. since you think that thru photos you can know someone. and not thru personality. control is care? YOU control way too much, over the limits & you dont even know. always think that for my own good. OR i should say for your own good. cause im yours. cannot let other people go near, see. like just now, i just ask you go eat first, cause im still not done yet. you thinks that im having lunch with the guy not you. WTF is this thinking? why cant you think that way that i ask you to go eat first then i join you after that? WHY?!

always want ME to listen to you. did you ever listen to what i tell you? no most of the time you dont. cause you're think that you're better than me. im stupid, useless right? you dont believe what i say, you dont heed to my advice, you dont ask for my advice, you dont. im just a girlfriend which special status, who doesnt share woes, only happiness & quarrels. you always makes me feel that im stupid in front of you & i hate it. fucking hate it.

then now you think that i cant wait to see you go into army. THEN WTF FOR ME TO ASK YOU GO PASS YOUR FUCKING NAFA FOR?!!!!! might as well dont say anything, let you go in in june. wtf wtf wtf. think negatively AGAIN. and when you say you wanna buy ciggs even though you promised to quit smoking. did i say no? i even let you buy the ciggs even though i fucking hate it when you smoke.fucking destest every single about ciggs. let you buy one pack only, ended up you bought dont know how many new packs. did i scold you? no i didnt.

then what about me? i only wear that maxi dress once in a blue moon. take photos. i DID pull up okay? that dress meant to be low cut, no matter how much i pull up, it will still go down. do i wear low cut everyday? NO, i dont. BUT you smoke every fucking single day without fail. but did i say anything about it? NO, i didnt. then why do you have to make a big fuss over this issue about me wearing the dress?! most of the time, what you want i give you. but what you given to me? other than spending time with me. havent i been good for the past few months? what's the point of me being good?! you dont praise me, no rewards, nothing. even if i want, i have to ask, this is so embarrassing dont you know that? i got no motivation at all and yet i have to do it.

DONT YOU THINK YOU'RE GOING TOO OVERBOARD?!?!

im on the verge of breaking down i swear. One day, when my limits are up, patience are gone. thats it...

2010-04-14T14:45:00.003+08:00

Paycheck for my Funan Roadshow is here. less than $200. damn. gotten myself a part time job at starhub. i dont have to worry about my expenses anymore. School starting in 17may. wonder how would it be like. 28may-30th may, im going to KL with family & baby!

today is my mummy's birthday! heh. nothing for her. aiyah, just have to be good can already. haha.

im bored. alone at home. shall cook some food, watch some shows. heh.

2010-04-06T16:09:00.003+08:00

Had Fish&Co yesterday with baby and his mum. the bill was omfg cheap. less than $20. why? cause of the $1 earth hour promotion. Fish&chips cost only $1!!!

before that, went all the way to IMM to take our IT fair pay. able to go on a shopping spree again!! 10mins from now, baby gonna end his work & come over to my house. heh.

2010-04-03T23:57:00.002+08:00

HELLO EVERYBODY!

Im back from genting a few days back ago. isnt as fun as i thought it will be. those long bus rides. those "spoilt" machines in the theme park. small hotel room. insanely dirty air despite being above the clouds. the overcharged food/clothes. omgggg. but still, i managed to spend some good time with my sugarboy. although i accidently causes his toe nail to spilt.

i miss my girlfriends. :( after jessalyn start working, haven even meet her yet. damn you jess. find one saturday and we head out okay? as for selene, im meeting her next week. heh.

oh by the way, something which makes me happy! i bought a laptop, my very first laptop. hahah. im paying it all on my own alright!! its a steal seriously! having connections is good. a very very very good one for me. so much more better than my slow poke desktop. baby bought one too, waaaay more better than me. ohwell, i need a normal one will do. hahah. im getting my IT fair pay next monday!

gotta find a long term part time job. in order to pay for my laptop & my spending expenses. ohmyyyy. next target would be Iphone! daddy has friends working in singtel which means more exclusive discounts & freebies for me!

2010-03-21T11:45:00.004+08:00

Yes yes, i know i haven been updating much. maybe because im way too lazy get myself to update. IT fair is over, sold quite a number of it. newly in charge is indeed scary. i dont like him in fact kinda detest him due to the way he treated us. Jessalyn working full time now. no time for me. :( dumb girl. i want to go shopping with you!!!

Going overseas next week with baby! hahahahah. mad excited. hah. shall go prepare now. my sugarboy is coming over to fetch us to grandma's house. miss grandma so much. boo.

2010-03-07T16:44:00.001+08:00

THE MONTH OF: MARCH

Somehow would be a busy month for me. upcoming IT fair in few days time. Apply course in PSB academy. Genting Trip with baby at the end of the month. & if i were to get a full time, things gonna get even busier. hahah. Gotta work very very very hard during IT fair. need to earn more money. cant slack like the previous 2 IT fairs anymore. target for me this time is to sell at least 25laptops. the more the better of course. hahahah. hopefully the new in charge wont be that shitty. still prefer ronnie & ah fong. cause they allow me to roam around!!

heh. i love you, baby.

2010-02-27T00:07:00.006+08:00

60 things guys should know about girls.

Don't think that just because you didn't tell us we are never going to find out.
Our friends know EVERYTHING.
EVERYTHING said to our friends will be told to us. Guaranteed.
No matter what we say, we hate your ex-girlfriend.
We check our phones every hour to see if you have replied to our texts, then worry if you haven't.
The fact you might leave us for another girl keeps us up at night.
When we're not talking to you on MSN, we're actually waiting for you to talk to us (in a non-snobby way, we want to see if you still care enough to talk to us).
When we act sad, we want you to hug us.
Our favourite part of the MSN conver is at the end when you say good bye, because that's the part you say you love us.
We actually freak out on what to do during holidays like Valentines Day.
We don't care what our friends think of you, but we do care what your friends think of us.
Yes, you might be the reason we failed that Maths test.
We are very, very scared of scaring you away.
We don't care about what we talk about, just as long as we have your attention for a few minutes.
Of course, we do believe the crap we read in magazines.
We have mood swings. Get over it.
Everytime you're around other girls, we worry they are better than us.
We don't want to hear how cool your ex-girlfriend/neighbor/best gal friend is.
Movies like 'He's Just Not That Into You' depress us.
We will move mountains on our timetable if it means seeing you.
We compare every other guy to you, and you always come out best.
We hate it when you go to clubs without us. (luckily you didnt!) :D
We hate feeling as if we are like any other girl.
Don't brag about other girls liking you, it just makes us insecure.
When we say everything is 'fine', it generally means everything is absolutely horrible and we are on the brink of falling to pieces.
Don't just say 'ok' when we say we don't want to talk about it.
If you want to know something about us, ask our best friend.
If you do not hug us, we will not kiss you.
We think you are the best guy in the world.
We.Will.Kill.You.If.We.See.You.Slow.Dancing.With.Another.Girl.Without.Telling.Us.
We really do want you to stick up for us.
Compliments. We love them.
Be on time. We will think you don't care if you're not on time at a certain place.
Whether you say (L) or luv or love does matter.
We don't care if you couldn't come on that date because of some reason, just don't lie to us.
We like cuddling up to you so let us.
Silent Treatment + Short Answers + Not Smiling or Laughing + Evil Looks = YOU DID SOMETHING WRONG.
You will be classed in our 'Hate' list if you forget our birthday.
Do not ask what's wrong. We'll never tell you we just want you to cuddle us.
You need to tell us what you think of us, we don't make assumptions (apart from 'OMG HE'S GONE OFF ME HASN'T HE?!')
Telling us that we are pretty will mean absolute LOADS.
Do not make fun of us unless we are in a good mood. As insecure as girls go, we take these things very seriously.
If you do end up doing Number 42, you just have to hope we aren't in a bad mood.
Saying something sweet MIGHT get you off the hook. Doing something sweet will ALWAYS get you off the hook.
We never forget things about you. Never.
We over-analyze everything.
We over-react to everything.
When we are mad at you, we aren't actually mad at you we just want you to apologize so we can start showing we like you again.
Please don't stand 384931491329403 feet away from us. Even if we are scary.
Please acknowledge that when we are online when you sign in, we probably have waited ages for you to come online so please make it worthwhile.
We do not care if 50 000 other guys declared their love for us if you never do it none of it matters.
We don't like being used.
We like it when you do unexpected nice things.
We usually don't let just any guy make us cry, so if you make us cry, damn you must have done something bad...
This is the way it works: You don't give us any attention, we dump you. It is NOT: You don't give us any attention, we chase after you. Deal with it.
We like it when you are protective of us. It makes us feel special.
Unless she is a moronic idiot, a girl who truly loves you will love you for a long, long time.
When we come back from a holiday and brag about how awesome it was, during the entire time there we were probably thinking about you. A lot.
No matter where we are or what we are doing, we really want you to hold our hand.
And please for the love of god shut up about how fit other girls are. You know we like you and the fact you do this despite you knowing how we feel is just evil.

2010-02-25T00:40:00.003+08:00

Tomorrow is my baby's last major exam!!! happy for him & me. hahahah. going on a date after that. like finally. haven been going out on a date with him for ages. if he were to cancel on me again, i swear i wont forgive him. haha. shall go for another massage. shoulders aching.

Sunday - Flea market with jazzy & jessalyn! at helipad though. ohwell, for the sake of the clothes. why not.

yesterday, i had so much fun despite seeing jazzy for the first time! hahah. 2 of us disturb jessalyn like crazy. jazzy is super uber mega "hiao". totally cannot take it man. hahahha. i think i get along well more with crazy girls rather than normal girls. which is good. be myself in front of them.

lastly, this is soooo pretty!

I totally wouldn't mind having this on my body.

2010-02-19T17:58:00.006+08:00

Just before meeting jessalyn & jazzy! here's some pictures taken for the past few days. im trying very hard to make my blog alive.

(my skills good right?)
anyway, somebody who cannot be replaced. (:

2010-02-18T23:46:00.000+08:00

I hate when people that don’t even know me talk about me.
I hate when people like something then stop just because I don’t like it.
I hate when people tell me that I said something that I obviously never did!
I hate when people ask who I’m texting.
I hate when I ask someone “Who?” and they say, “Oh someone you don’t know.” 
I hate when people think they can sing, but they can’t.
I hate when people have the same name as me.
I hate when people ask “what’s wrong?” when obviously nothing is wrong.
I hate when other people are flirting.
I hate when people start smoking when they’re near me.
I hate when people ask me what I’m doing when I am online.
I hate when people ask to use my cell phone.
I hate when people IM me, then have nothing to say.
I hate when people show up unexpectedly.
I hate when people say they can come, then don’t show up.
I hate when people talk about people they know, but I don’t.
I hate when people think I have a crush on them just because I’m nice to them.
I hate when people think they are “random” when they’re not.
I hate when people like their own facebook posts.
I hate when people do the jerk.
I hate when people say, “I know something… but I can’t tell you.”
I hate when people get back together over and over.
I hate when people change what I said, to make it sound way worse than what I meant.
I hate when people I hate like the same things that I like.
I hate when people make a big deal out of a little mistake.
I hate when people say “I’m not yelling!” when clearly they are.
I hate when I make plans, get excited, and then they never happen.
I hate when I think of a really good comeback after the argument.
I hate when I’m pulling into the garage and my favorite song starts.
I hate those awkward moments when my friend’s parents are yelling at them.
I hate that horrible mini-heart attack I get when I think I’ve lost something.
I hate when I’m about to say something good and the topic changes.
I hate when someone else takes the piece of food I have mentally claimed.
I hate when I tell a story that is supposed to be funny and no one laughs.
I hate waiting for a text, then receiving it right when I am about to fall asleep.
I hate when I wake up a half hour before the alarm goes off and just lay there.
I hate when I beat someone and their excuse is “I wasn’t trying.”
I hate pumping gas in the freezing cold.
I hate when I can’t get to sleep because my brain is having a convo with itself.
I hate when I don’t notice my phone is dying until I’m about to leave.
I hate it when I find out something I didn’t want to know and my heart sinks.
I hate trying to text and my fingers are all frozen from the cold outside.
I hate when I can’t decide if I want to buy something, so I walk away, then when I come back for it, it’s gone.
I hate it when my friends become friends with someone I hate.
I hate it when I stand up too quickly and nearly black out.

2010-02-14T00:03:00.004+08:00

In The Year Of Tiger,

May Every Single Of Us Prosper With Wealth,
Health,
Peace
& Last But Not Least
LOVE.

HUAAAAAAAAAT AH! $_$

& Happy Valentine's Day!!

May the singles get their girlfriends/boyfriends real soon. (esp gf)
&
The attached last long with their girlfriends/boyfriends.

PUT ON A SMILE ON EVERY SINGLE DAY OF YOUR LIFE!

So that lady luck, $$ luck will keep coming to you!

LASTLY BEFORE ME HEADING TO BED!!

YAP FENG HAO!
I love you. <3

May us have lesser quarrels, more trust, more love, more money, better temper. (:

BYEBYE!!

2010-02-11T16:02:00.003+08:00

Very first label of Joey ong liying. :)

using my own hard earn money to buy it okay! finally can use it on sunday. heh. happy! baby & barney says its nice. hahahah. of course nice, cause its me who choose it. plain & simple ftw. maybe i should get my mother one bag or something. heh.

2010-02-09T23:31:00.004+08:00

Finally, after dont know how many weeks. went on a date with baby to bugis. he want to buy some berms, i want to buy that $40 bag. feel god damn happy when the bag is finally mine! asked for discounts, last piece & $5 discount. hahahahah. bought a floral dress which is damn cute, most of all nice. deciding if i should wear that on the first day of CNY. or the one i planned before hand? hmmm...

had a new hair cut somewhere last week. the aunty snip a lot of my hair. every person who cut my hair always says that i have very very thick hair. i know i know. i think its damn good to have thick hair alright?! future when you're old, wont get bald easily. tsk.

5 more days to Chinese New Year. im fully prepared! i want to win win win $$ this year. a bit i happy already. lol.

KFC's egg tart. current favorite. ^^

2010-02-04T18:24:00.000+08:00

let's see, i haven been updating for ages. 10days left to Chinese New Year. Aint getting the "im gonna get angbaos mood" yet. Wonder why. Ever since the year 2010 started, nothing good has happen to me. not good not good. tsk. quarrels with bf, studies bla bla not good. hopefully things will get better if not i swear i would go insane!

Saw a pumps from tracyeinny that i fall in love at first sight! should i buy?! Shall buy it if they send an invoice to me. its just so pretty!! omfg cant help it but to comment on it. & that $40 bag i saw from bugis, so overpriced but i love it a lot! have been looking for a white bag for so long! but $40...... shall head down next week with jessalyn, if its still there, im gonna bargain for a nice discount & buy it! spendthrift me. :(

Currently at grandma's house. she's whipping up dinner for me & sister! smells good. her cooking is the best! esp her chicken wings! droooools. hungry hungry, okay maybe not just wanna eat. blah. me fat i know. geez.

look at those puppies! aint they cute?! i want a dog so badly. ever since after happy passed away, i feel so lonely when im at home. Used to wake up with her around, used to have her to welcome me back when im home, used to talk bullshits to her, used to trick her with food on my hands, used to have her when im sad/emo, used to tell her my secrets. sigh. its not even 2months yet & i miss her so much. hate staying at home. :'(

2010-01-31T15:59:00.001+08:00

SCORPIO

MAKE UP
Scorpio gals are all about [Sexy] style in 2010
You'll be no.1 as long as you get your sexy on and show off your sex appeal

Lips:Sex up those lips with tons of lip gloss for the perfect kissing lips.
Eyes: wink up your eyeliner for those cat/animal eyes
Lash: volume those lashes to make sure the boys cant take their eyes off yo.

FASHION & STYLE
Key: Sexy Style
Show off your shoulders in 2010~
Something loose but when worn, it shows off just how sexy you are.
Your popularity will level up if you can find something that goes all the way to your fingers.
(seen on model)

Shoes: Knee high or below ankle.
Accessories: wine red items.

DECORATION ITEM
Rose Deco
Rose deco is bound to increase your luck this year!
Rose deco from your hair curler, brush, comb to your portable mirror
will definitely UP your beauty!

DIET
How to slim down for Scorpio gals this year?
Find a boyfriend or a guy you like and you'll sure to slim down.
If not, join a dance class.

GOOD LOVE DATES: February 14th ~ February 25th
Confession on Valentines day!
You might fall in to a crazy love like you've never had before!

OVERALL LUCKY DATES: February 20th ~ March 18th
You might win a Beauty Pageant.
Also you might be basking in the spotlight of something special.

wonder if its true....

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2010-01-24T23:36:00.002+08:00

Things going to get harder. Cant believe it's just the beginning of 2010 & i gotta go through this shit. oh god. baby, you will stick with me all the way right? Jessalyn, you will be my shoulder to count on too right? i feel so shitty now. ohmygod. feel like dying. Cant accept the fact yet, not just yet.

fuck it. Good luck to me tomorrow. & for the rest of the year.

2010-01-16T13:10:00.002+08:00

Some pictures before i go for my second round of shopping! (:

2010-01-01T22:14:00.010+08:00

LET'S SAY HELLO TO

2010!

My 2010 resolutions

Get that 2.5k job or any kind of good pays job till april.
Get into a brand new course with nice classmates along with Jessalyn
Study hard & get smarter than now.
Change my temper/give in more. (for sake of sugarboy)
Lesser quarrels/arguments/etc.
BFF with Jessalyn will last.
Be less evil/harsh/direct/stubborn. (highly impossible)
Visit grandparents more.
Get along better with my mother.
Save More Spend lesser.
Neater Room.
Lappy.
Gucci Bag

LASTLY,

Haven been updating for the past 10days. nothing much happened. let me recall what i did for the past few days. let's start on whatever days i can remember.

Xmas eve 24dec- spend my day with my sugarboy. Countdown in his house cause we got nowhere to go & just wanna have each other by our side.

Xmas 25dec- Went over to aunt's house for some housewarming cum xmas party. Then went over to sugarboy's Xmas ktv party at some high class country club till midnight.

Tuesday 29dec - Out with barney for some bike viewing & dinner. haven seen him for ages. He drove a car to fetch me instead of riding. a woah to me. lol. hear him rant about his love life currently. Dinner was gooooood, my craves for Astons for cured cause of him. such a nice brotheeer. & his birthday is coming in about 5days time. Went over to baby's house after that.

Wed 30dec - Went phuture to club with jessalyn, st, Ghim chi, Joel & his 2 friends. Too packed to have fun. Q was effing long. inside was packed like sardines. somebody farted in there which polluted the whole place. St went home first cause she's feeling unwell. went to the prata shop with ghimchi after that leaving the rest inside. Baby came to fetch me after that. went home early. No photos cause i cant find my camera. ended up its still on my table. -.- wtf.

New Year's Eve 31dec - slept all the way to 4pm with baby. Went to Marina barrage for work. Work was insanely boring. nothing to do. The party was a goner seriously. bet they lose money instead of earn. good thing is i earn $150 for do nothing, absolutely nothing at all. Things got screwed up after that. a long story. went over for breakfast and cabbed home. god damn tired even though we did nothing.

1st jan 2010 - slept till 9pm. Ate dinner. Packed my room. Computer got screwed. daddy is bringing it to see doctor tomorrow. it better get well soon. hahahah. i'm gonna do upload my photos. back up my stuff bla bla bla. hopefully 2010 will be a good year!

BEFORE I GO,

2009-12-21T01:28:00.002+08:00

I REALLY DONT KNOW WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU GUYS. WHY CANT TWO OF YOU JUST BE FRIENDS & PEACE TO EACH OTHER. SO GUAI LAN TO EACH OTHER FOR WHAT. YOU SAY I STICK TO HIM, HE SAY I STICK TO YOU. I ACCOMPANY HIM NEVER ACCOMPANY YOU, I ACCOMPANY YOU NEVER ACCOMPANY HIM. YOU GUYS THINK IM ABLE TO SPLIT MYSELF INTO TWO & ACCOMPANY EACH OF YOU AT THE SAME TIME? WHY CANT YOU GUYS PUT YOURSELF IN MY SHOES & FEEL HOW I FEEL. STOP BEING SO SELF CENTERED. I GO CLUB WITHOUT HIM, CONFIRM CHOP CHOP QUARREL. THEN IF I DIDNT GO CLUB, YOU CONFIRM BUAY SONG WITH ME. WHAT YOU GUYS WANT ME TO DO. RIGHT HAND LEFT HAND BOTH ALSO MEAT, HOW TO FOCUS ON ONE ONLY. WHY CANT YOU GUYS GIVE IN TO ME A BIT & GET ALONG WITH EACH OTHER, JUST A TINY WINY BIT. FUCKNG CHEEBONG SHIT. WHY EVERYTIME LIKE THAT ONE, GIRLFRIENDS JUST CANT FUCKING GET ALONG WITH GIRLFRIEND'S BOYFRIEND. WTFFFFFFF.

2009-12-21T00:10:00.007+08:00

about a week since i've updated. basically i got no mood to due to happy my precious little dog had passed away. well, i still cant really get over that she's gone forever. :( i miss her so badly. sigh. cant help but to blame myself. sigh. sometimes i still feel that she's in the house with us. geez. her soul is with us. heh. makes me feel better at least. thanks to my sugarboy & jessalyn uh, came all the way down just for me, comforting me, lending me your shoulders to cry on. i feel so blessed with you guys around. :) loveeeee you! <333

Daddy bought me a new fan which is like super duper windy. Went Ikea together with sugarboy after so long. Shopped a lot lately although im in debts already. owe mom & auntie a lot due to happy's bills. stupid pet hospital, cant save my dog still wanna charge so much. ridiculous shit. Feel so carefree without having to go to school, waking up early. double love when my boy wakes up right beside me. he have been accompanying for the past few days straight. sweet right?! maybe he's afraid that i might commit suicide or something. lol.

my boy given me a early xmas present. an blueblack eye. 2days ago, when he did it. i didnt even feel any pain. after that, my eye swollen!!! so ugly please. nearly scare me to death when i look into the mirror. luckily it had gotten better. if not, baby gonna get it from me! hahahahah. cant stop complaining about my eye. awfully pain can. zzz. irritating.

lastly, pictures.

2009-12-14T22:32:00.002+08:00

Rest in peace alright? me joey ong liying love you very very much. in fact all of us do. please please please come back and look for me okay? let me dream of you. i know you gone to a better place. no more suffering nothing but happines and tons of food for you. you love me very very very much too right happy? you was very very very strong. jiejie know you want to live but you cant do anything about it. jie jie know, you came back 4times. what strong willpower you have. must come back see me okay? protect me from those ghosts etc during 7th month. i know you will.

lastly, fuck the person who left the rat poison in the park. bastard. son/daughter of a bitch. idiot. my fucking dog died because of you. dont ever ever fucking ever let me see you leaving any rat poison in the park. i swear i'll give you one fucking tight slap & of course give you hell.

2009-12-13T22:59:00.003+08:00

hello sugarbaby, something for you.

I love all the times (mostly) we've spent together. I love when both of us smile when we kissed. I love how we talk to each other side by side before turning in. I love jumping on you & curl my legs around you. I love to see you cook for me. I love to see you do or say things solely because of me, it makes me feel very very special. I love giving you sneak attacks. I love burping in your mouth. I love waking up in your arms & see you smiling at me. I love biting you & hearing you ouch in pain. I love to hear you sleep talk (cause its all about me) I love blowing wind into your mouth. I love you hugging me from the back & sleep. I love how we make those lovey dovey eyes to each other. I love to see you getting so uptight when i give you gucci attacks. I love how you give in to me whenever i start pouting. I love how you dominate me (sometimes) I love seeing you acting cute because it makes me smile. I love the times you were there for me, I love everything about you (almost) , us & I want all of these to last.. I'm so grateful to have you. you know i dont know how to sweet talk or pacify or so ever. i got no idea how to say. but i know im at fault, forgive me will you? and put your heart & soul inside me again. i promise i wont do what you wont want me to do again. stop saying all those fucking mean words, me hate it muthafucking much. you dont see me saying all this to you loh! but nevertheless, I'm sorry for all those tantrums i throw. I'm sorry for being so stubborn. I'm sorry for getting you upset. I'll try my best to be your good girlfriend okayokayokay promise! :)

2009-12-13T11:08:00.002+08:00

You're like the air I breathe,
having you beside me is never enough.
You're like the water I drink,
always there to replenish me.
You're like the blanket I cover,
keeping me warn and secure.
You're like the food I need,
which I need to keep myself strong.
You're like the love I need,
showering me with care and concern.
You're the only one I need,
And that's the reason why I can't live without you.

heh, stupid boy. how sweeeeet. blah. Grandma's 70th birthday celebration. Massive shopping with girlfriend with boyfriend tagging along. hopefully i dont shop so much. lol. mummy screaming. im gonna go prepare!

2009-12-09T23:21:00.002+08:00

Haven been updating about a week. Holidays have been great. non stop of playing. carefree life. sweet moments with my sugarboy. he just went to bed due to his medical check up tomorrow morning at 8.30am. wonder how is he gonna wake up so early. that lazy boy of mine. geez. Gonna whip up some nice nice yummy yummy food specially for him tomorrow. Cant wait.

i wanna go candle! jessalyn accompany me go! we buy in bulk. cheaper. i want to shop shop shop eat eat eat! maybe i should go do some commission earning job like what louis is doing now in order to shop more. since the commission is high, so why not? hahah.

I'm bored. i want to head down to Geylang 126 for dim sum. but baby sleeping. gaaaah. me hungry. omg, i cant remember what i ate for dinner. shall eat something light. bet dinner would be a heavy meal. i have decided to watch my animes till im tired enough to crash my bed. No pictures, nothing. boringgggg. wait la wait, wait for me to take more photos okay?

lastly, happy anniversary, sugarboy. loveyou. stop being meanie alright? heh.

2009-11-30T23:39:00.004+08:00

Finally, 4days of IT fair, almost 48 hours of standing are over. my legs are screaming for help even up till now. omg. The location this time at expo. sales isnt that good despite me working harder than before. ohwell, at least overall paycheck would be better than helipad's. saying of helipad, im getting my pay this week! mad happy i tell you! no more poor days. major massive shopping spree!

the next happy thing is my sugarboy pass his driving test! he just sent me home by driving. feel sooooo good. he cant stay over tonight though. geez. sometimes i really dislike his mum. this cannot that cannot. so irritating. my parents didnt really say a thing about my sugarboy staying over for the past 2days. zzz. got me into such a bad mood now. buay tahan his mother.

btw, watched Ninja Assassin. Movie so so. kinda gross. Rain was handsome in some angles. his hair not nice, i dont like it. cant stop commenting on his hair. he look so much nicer with his old hair style or tied up. love the drama "full house" that he acted in. makes me go gaaaah gaaah over him. one of the best korean guys i love.

whatever. im heading to bed now. Last day of school tomorrow. Final year presentation. waited for so long for this day. awesome.

2009-11-22T23:12:00.002+08:00

Everything is good again. hopefully things will get better, especially after the heart to heart talk. All sort of things has been going quite well for now.

woke up early in the morning. went to do the prayers for my grandma. off to IMM daiso. Lunched at Waraku, mummy was happy because of the 30% discount. bill decreased a lot. hahahah. sugarbaby came over my crib after that. out to airport to send his family off to korea for holiday. i dont want go korea i want go japan! those 2 cousins are cuties. kissed me goodbye before they went in. awwwwww. baby doesnt have! heh. back to baby's house, chilled & back my home.

Should i paint my nails with the newly bought sally hansen nail polish. ages since i bought nail polish. okay, i think i should only but after i wake up. Cant wait for my effing pay to arrive in my hands. there's soooo many things i want to buy! but i shall buy those i need urgently first.

Wave Hoop (old one dead)
2 Demin jeans
Contact lens.
White loafers (old one dead)

lastly, im so in love with my heels! :D

2009-11-19T15:46:00.003+08:00

Congrats. you're making me very upset. you're getting on my nerves. you're giving me a feeling that you dont trust me, you feeling so insecure. you're like 24/7 suspicious of me & the guys around me? you're the first guy who ever did that to my friend. none of my ex ever did it before. you know how embarrassed i am? how am i gonna face him now? he's just a friend, a brother to me. someone who i can talk to cause he knows me well. our points of views are similar & also he can give me advice. yet you did this to him, what if i lost a friend like him? so you're telling me that i cant talk to my guy friends? i cant head out with them? i cant talk on the phone with them? i cant accept what they give me as a present? why do you have to do something like that? or do you want to check on every guy friend of mine then you will feel safe? its not like im gonna cheat on you behind your back which i ensure you countless of times. its not like im gonna run off with him. i dont have the habit of telling people about my life, private life. i dont tell people what i do, where i go, with who, how i talk to people etc. even my parents never treated me this way. nevertheless, you're my boyfriend but still i have my own private life.. im that mysterious. dont make me hide more & more things from you. i can do that without lifting a finger. you should start to trust me, start to feel secure, start to stop being so suspicious of everything i do & my friends. i need my friends too, not only girlfriend not only boyfriend not family. they're also my pillar of support, just that they're slightly different from me in terms of sexual identities. cause i personally feel so much better communicating with them rather than girls. i feel i can be myself hanging out together with them.

I feel like im a bird in a cage, & this feeling didnt even fade before..

YOU THINK I DONT WANT TO UPDATE A HAPPY POST MEH. I ALSO WANT CAN! BUT DOESNT SEEMS TO HAVE ONE. SO BEAR WITH ME FOR NOW.....

LASTLY,
_l_ to the ones who thinks that a girl who hangs out with tons of guys = flirt.
fuck this thinking of yours.

2009-11-18T14:09:00.002+08:00

I'm not good at expressing my feelings, expressing what am i thinking. sometimes what i said out doesnt mean that i meant that way. maybe i said it at the fit of anger? maybe i want to make you jealous? i dont know. i dont mean what i said, but you tends to believe what i said. just to let you know that all those stuff that i said which affected you badly, i dont mean it. gou shi xin fei, you know? you also know i dont like people to control me. i said it a lot of times. give me freedom & i 'll love you more & of course trust me. i dont break my promises i made you. i dont want to feel like a bird in a cage. i dont want us to fight over & over again because all sorts of things. its kinda pointless cause our views are totally mega different. aiyah, i got no idea what am i saying. forget it.

at the end of day, i still love you very very much. & you'll give me a happy life right?

2009-11-13T13:49:00.003+08:00

Have been skipping school madly for the past few days. On wed, head out with my friends & gf for my belated birthday celebration. Watched My girlfriend is an agent. hilarious to the extent that i got super thirsty due to laughing too much. After that, went for supper. gf stayed over my place. awesome night. hahahha. gotten a prada present. ohwell, inside joke. hahah. nevertheless, me still appreciate the present. heh.

i'm so broke now. have been spending non stop after i got my paycheck. gah. got to stop spending & start saving! maybe work more despite the fact that i'm so lazy to work. maybe i go buy 4D, win some money. hopefully. enough whining. now, go cook some instant noodles, watch some animes, get prepared & head out for work. im happy that im not working tomorrow! cause of FYP. ah boring. stupid FYP. turning everyone insane.

I want to eat Ikea's meatballs, Waraku, Pasta de Waraku, Teppanyaki, Xiaolongbaos, Frolicks, Baked oysters & many many more. im a sucker for food. geez. grow fat already still eat so much. i want "23" waist! 1inch only also so hard to slim. tmd.

okaaay, grumbling post. goodbye.

You'll never guess correctly what's inside. (:

2009-11-09T21:36:00.006+08:00

On my birthday. Had tons of fun during the night. slept through out the day with sugarboy though. lol. Went over his aunty house in the evening. had a party. A indian Chef came over & cook for us. the prata was nice. after that, headed down for work. quite a number of friends made the effort to come over to celebrate my birthday. was shocked when they even brought cake down! ahahha. best thing its Oreo cheesecake! everyone says its delicous. hahah

after work, santos and others force me drink. Drank 4shots down at one go. worse still, they video it down! raaaah. As usual, i puke like mad but didnt get drunk. still manage to get home alone okay! tell the taxi uncle where i stayed etc. lol. went out till late night for the past few days. dad nearly scold me because of it.

PICTURE SPAM.

& LASTLY!!!!!!!!

I finally did something that i wanted for to do it for the longest time. and finally i pluck up all my courage & do it!! of course with my darling girl. (: make a guess what we did. hahahah. both of us are hair free now! yay! all those pain are worth it.

2009-11-06T00:51:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOEY ONG LIYINGGGG!
(:

2009-11-05T14:48:00.003+08:00

CANT WAIT FOR 12AM TO STRIKE! OMGGGGGG!

Still gotta work though. but but but quite a number of groups of friends will be coming over. happy enough already. lol. before work, there's some party going on. there's even chef cooking for us. not that kind of normal buffet style. so excited! hahahhaha. hopefully there's tons of red packets for me.

Currently in school now. boring. nothing to do other than surfing the net. later heading down to grandma house. granny whipping up my favourite food. heh. No work on saturday. girls outing to Zouk or supper club? ahahha. then selen is gonna spend my belated birthday clebration with me after her damn Os. miss her sooooo much.

i dont really have any birthdays wishlist in mind. anything will do i guess? maybe more RED packets. ahahhaha

2009-11-03T04:16:00.000+08:00

Halloween was fun despite working. dressed up as corpse bride. hahahah. Eve gotten the best dressed award. she really look awesome. reward was verve clique champagne. jealous! As for today, went to babysit Shanyu & zhengyu. had to sneak out in order to get back to sugarboy's home. felt like a criminal. hahah. they're cute though. Bought a corset unwillingly. ohwell, treat it as a birthday present for myself. since it look nice on me. Webcamed with jessalyn. had a lot of fun. hahahah. then went to fetch my sugarbaby. i was pouting all the way due to the unwillingness of the corset. sigh. spent a bomb on it! Had dinner & went back home. gotta go school tomorrow. boring.

Cant wait for my birthday. hahahah. bet i would be damn late for work. doesnt wanna work but quite a number of groups of friends coming over just to find me. if not, i wont be working for sure. Since Chris says its okay for me not to work on both days this week. Mum got me a diamond necklace which doesnt even looks like one. -.- its nice anyway. ahaha.

WEBCAM CRAZEEEE~

2009-10-27T16:05:00.004+08:00

short short post & some pictures before i start preparing to head out. Me skip school for 2days or even more. me happy cause barney go for interview in helipad. hopefully he gets hired. so i got another close friend to work with me! plus i dont have to take the transport home which is damn awesome. Cant wait for my birthday to arrive. Cant wait for Halloween to arrive. Cant wait 10novemeber to arrive. Cant wait school to end. Cant wait for my paycheck. Cant wait for the next IT fair. Cant wait for this year to end. Cant wait for my Zipia loots to come into my hands.

OKAY. OFF PREPARING. BYE.(:

2009-10-24T14:32:00.003+08:00

Shall blog now while i got time. how i wish i have 48hours a day. -.- Work was totally mad. people dancing like insane. drunkards telling each other that they're sober. on friday, it rain & we had to rush all the stuff back down. at least sales was good. tips was awesome. hahhaha. plus i'm the door bitch during opening hours & closing hours. most slacking yet boring job in helipad ever. now standard already, i gotta to be the door bitch every friday & saturday before alex comes to take over.

For the past one week plus, i cant really remember what i did. let me recall what i can recall. Celebrated Gan's birthday. his camera was shit. cant take nice pictures. argh. My happy got lost, some assholes found it and doesnt want to return my happy. Went all the way down to sembawang to get it back with sugarboy, sister, and his friends. ended up, they return without saying anything. retards. School sucks. even work is better than school. but still, i got to do those projects in order to graduate.

tomorrow school again. geez. friday 31st! yay! hahahahah. after that, 6days to my birthday. happy happy happy. heh. got quite a number of photos to upload but im way too lazy to do it. im still so sleepy despite waking up late. i need to get more face masks & eye masks too. boo. im hitting the sheets. cannot take it anymoreeeee. omg.

2009-10-15T15:22:00.001+08:00

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2009-10-14T15:21:00.003+08:00

School was boring. Nothing much to do expect for vivian's lesson although i felt like i can fall asleep at any point of time. Went Bugis. Went into an cosplay shop & TADA, we spend $$ again. clothes for Halloween's day. the sad thing is for the sake work. ohwell, at least i look good in the outfit. jessalyn look cute. hahah. this kind of things cannot wait, want to do just do it, do it while young. no point waiting till you're old & regret. HAHAHAH.

Brought gf to the shop where i bought my bag. she had a hard time choosing. troublesome girl. ended up also buy the ones i choose for her. tsk. i got good taste one okay! She bought undies too. omg. she shy & even blushed. hahahah. Sent her to bus stop & trained back together with sugarboy. back to his house for dinner. the chicken chop was nice. overall, not filling for me. close ones know i eat a lot. watched tv chill & went home. i prefer going his grandma's house. lol.

pictures spam. full of my photos. scared you guys forgot how i look. -.-

2009-10-12T11:35:00.000+08:00

friday night for work. isnt that bad expect for that girl. makes my blood boil the moment i think of it. talk as if i owe her my fucking life. so old already, still dont know how to talk nicely. tsk. even jess dislikes her. me being the youngest there even knows better. No wonder there's no peace because there's this kind of people on earth. tsk. jealously really kills. hahahaah. Had a talk with Boss Chris while being the door bitch. he's a nice guy. he even ask hairmie to personally train me. also said that he gonna teach me whatever i want to learn. the funny thing is when he says "nobody can bully you expect me". one funny boss. i like this sentence of all when he says "any problem come tell me" awesome boss.

another convo which i thinks quite cute
Chris: joey boy is a nice guy. i like him. always joke around.
Me: yah, indeed. im joey ong, he's joey chua.
Chris: i like both joeys but i prefer joey ong more.
Me: *smile smile* (laughing in my heart)

after that, talk to hairmie. found out that he isnt that scary as he seems to be. another nice guy. Santos asked me to go prawning after work with the crews but i rejected cause firstly its too far, secondly im too tired. hahah. hopefully there's next time, without that girl of course. to think that i had to take the same bus home with her. omg. how i wish i can take cab home. pray hard sugar boy fucking pass his car license so he can fetch me home.

Saturday, nothing happening. wanted to head down to simlim square to take my remaining pay but weather was too insane. headed to sugar boy's granny house instead. his small cousin, zheng yu was damn cute. kept on clinging to him non stop despite seeing the second time only. even sugar boy got jealous of him. hahahah. went to the movie after that. the first part was super boring, nearly fall asleep. but the climax was so exciting. omg. hahahah. bused home & im back here. lol.

Yesterday, gotten my pay. was the 3rd highest of all. not bad uh. felt like a rich girl. went on a shopping spree. bought a bag, lingeries, Blazer. & lastly a shirt for sugar boy. look so good on him i sweaaar. hahah. went to his grandma house for dinner after that. then basketball for him & edwin & other random guys. stayover at grandma's house. cause aunty going to tibet, & grandma is still in penang. i had to take care of grandpa. cant really sleep because the cats was fcuking noisy. my dark eyes. :(

right now, having vivian's lesson. but aint listening to it. too mood. too tired. too hungry. maybe heading to ding tai fung later for lunch. awesome. my brain is all full of food. tsk. cant wait for JC to bring gf & i for good food. imma such a sucker for food. hahahah. im so bloody lazy to work on friday & saturday. geez. for the sake of money, i shall tolerate!

2009-10-08T21:01:00.005+08:00

Tomorrow working again. No more gays. geez. i have been spending like water lately. gotta start saving and work slightly more than usual. Sugar boy is sleeping currently. im bored.. ohwell, talking to joey chua cures part of my boredom. i like talking to him, somehow we got the same frequency about most stuff. he taught me quite a lot, like a big brother to me. i yearn for one big brother. haha. shall play some poker later on & watch some animes. for the past few days was sugarboy's days. due to me, he didnt have much sleep, plus he got work the next morning. his dark eyes getting darker & darker. lol.

right now mum is disturbing my dad. how lovey dovey. so old already, still acting as though they're like 20plus. but still, i want my husband and i to be like this too. hahahah. Saturday heading down to sugarboy's granny's house. good food + save money. hahah. lack of money, must save save save. have to be mentally prepared to see his relatives & cousins again. his small cousins are darn "no comments". too young already, cant blame them. tsk.

Beautiful Pictures from all over the world. how i wish i can go there..

Cherry Blossoms Japan

Tundra

Autumn in Germany

The beauty of Antarctica

Saltzburg Austria - the most beautiful city we have ever seen.

Neuschwannstein, King Ludwig's Castle in Bavaria , Germany

Windmills of Holland

Beauty of Tibet

Disney Castle

Golden Maple Leaf

Edge of Glacier

Lavender Farm and Tree

Lavender Farm

The Night Scene of Eiffel Tower

Blue Sea

Earthbound Rainbow

MirrorLake

Lavender at the Foot of the Mountain

Comet (Make a wish)

The Purple Romance

Breithorn Peak ( Switzerland )

Deep Autumn

The Moon and Star on Earth

2009-10-06T02:42:00.003+08:00

Since i cant get to sleep, might as well spend a little time updating. who knows my sleeping bug might kick in after updating. Went to Ehub for movie with sugar boy. the bus trip took nearly an hour! its only from bedok to Ehub, mind you! i was 10mins late. miss a small part of the movie. sugar boy was complaining about it. blah. manage to shut him up in the end though. heh. the movie isnt as nice as the trailer. almost the same as Gamer but slightly better. those robots looks too perfect. how can the humans inside look so slim when they are cooped at home for the whole entire time? weird. me thinks that the main actor is handsome. told you i have fetish for guys with goatees. hahah. but sugarboy confirm doesnt look good in goatees. geez. Had Fish&Co for dinner. bused back home aftermath.

drank milk, ate a bit to fill my hungry stomach. maybe i cant sleep cause im too hungry? geez. i have been sleeping a lot for the past few days. well, since school is reopening again. must sleep more while i can! Wondering if i should fetch sticky boy from work tomorrow. i shall go fetch him, if im dont feel lazy. i felt like i was in little India for that moment when i step into his office building. omg. im not being racist, just that the smell is tiny winy too overwhelming for me to bear. maybe i should just wait for him in cityhall? hmmmm..

I want to visit Sterling Memorial Library & Berkeley College in Yale!!
OMFG, isnt it effing gorgeous?

Sheffield Sterling Strathcona building

One of the reading rooms. bet i will have fun studying inside.

Sterling Memorial Library's hallway.

Detail from Berkeley College's dining hall

Even the common room is so beautiful.
Credits to Zemotion.

2009-10-04T19:25:00.004+08:00

Yesterday was the night that i have seen so many gays in my whole entire life. nearly 500pax of gays. all the good looking ones turn gays. damn saddening i tell you. no wonder now SG no more good looking straight guys already. tsk. was damn sick during work. nearly die. but at least its not as busy as i think it would be. tips was so little. fucking little. stupid. reached home at 6am. slept till 6pm. awesome sleep. thanks to sarong fly, my throat doesnt hurt that much anymore. it taste very nice, kinda addictive too. hahahaha

Went To sugar boy's house. then his grandma's house. tons of people were there. cant get used to the noise. cause i dont have any young cousins anymore. all grown up. his cousins were cute though. made me so paiseh when sugar boy said something to me & his small cousin heard it. tsk. feel like digging a hole & put my head in. sugar boy's mum was there can. super embarrassing. leave their house for work at around 8plus.

during work, totally agony. actually the big boss isnt that fierce what. lol. he even say he would buy strepsils for me. felt weird when he said that. then the bouncer and the chef treat me not bad too. maybe this work isnt that bad expect for the late nights i have to tahan. geez. kinda slack. isnt that much of customers. im feeling sleepy again. i shall head back to bed soon. hahah.

lastly, Top 10 weird law around the world~

Number 10: Most Middle Eastern countries recognize the following Islamic law: "After having sexual relations with a lamb, it is a mortal sin to eat its flesh." - have sex with whores instead please. -.-

Number 9: In Lebanon, men are legally allowed to have sex with animals, but the animals must be female. Having sexual relations with a male animal is punishable by death. - sick in the brain.

Number 8: In Bahrain, a male doctor may legally examine a woman’s genitals, but is forbidden from looking directly at them during the examination. He may only see their reflection in a mirror. - AWWWWWWWWWWW~

Number 7: Muslims are banned from looking at the genitals of a corpse. This also applies to undertakers; the sex organs of the deceased must be covered with a brick or a piece of wood at all times. - hmmmm.. why brick?!

Number 6: The penalty for masturbation in Indonesia is capitation. - retarded.

Number 5: There are men in Guam whose full-time job is to travel the countryside and deflower young virgins, who pay them for the privilege of having sex for the first time. Reason: under Guam law, it is expressly forbidden for virgins to marry. - sg mans would love this job. luckily sg doesnt have.

Number 4: In Hong Kong, a betrayed wife is legally allowed to kill her adulterous husband, but may only do so with her bare hands. - I LOVE THIS TOTALLY.

Number 3: Topless saleswomen are legal in Liverpool, England, but only in tropical fish stores. - is their boobs huge? haha.

Number 2: In Santa Cruz, Bolivia it is illegal for a man to have sex with a woman and her daughter at the same time. - another law which proves that man are sick in the brain. tsk.

And the weirdest law in the world is...

In Cali, Colombia, a woman may only have sex with her husband, and the first time this happens her mother must be in the room to witness the act. - omg. i would never let my mum witness the act. bet my husband cant stand if she's there. LOL.

currently, i felt like im one of the most luckiest girls ever. hahahahah. i want jessalyn to feel that way too when she get hers. & lene's sel to realize that she is one great girlfriend compared to others. if not, im gonna wake her up & ask her to ditch the fucking him. i want my girls to be happy like a little a girl. heh. my two precious girls. loveeee you! omg, i feel so mushy. -.-

2009-10-02T15:18:00.004+08:00

im like super lazy to blog. -.- plus i cant remember what i did for the past few days. My voice hurts like insane. not my voice anymore, i want my sweet voice back. geez. i gotta work later, how to work with my voice like that! later customers run awaaay upon hearing my voice. hopefully sugar boy get to clinch the deal, then i no need work for at least 3months? cause he yang wo. woaaaaaaah, very shiok. no need work got money to spend already. HAHAHAHAHAH. scarly not even one month cannot yang already, cause he himself spend finish all the money already. tsk.

Had farewell dinner with with sugar boy, armpit boy & their friends. armpit boy heading to japan for 6months. thats very long. hahah. headed to airport after that. seems so sad when he walk away. i hate bidding goodbye. doesnt feel good at all. cabbed home.

as for yesterday, sugar boy took MC just solely for me. honored. hahah. headed to town for movie, shorts. personally thinks that the movie isnt that bad but sugar boy says its boring. his expectations too high already. tsk. then to Ion for my ice creeeeeeeeam. whine to sugar boy in order to get my ice cream. heh. he's always giving in to me. Roam around town, headed to bugis to take my paycheck. Din Tai Feng was next. i just cant stop eating & burping non stop. bleah. Went home kinda late. sugar boy got scolded by his mum again. tsk. i think his mother very funny. cannot stop scolding him one. funny shit.

PICtures~

2009-10-02T01:25:00.003+08:00

Fat sugaaaaaar boy,

just wanna say thank you for giving in to me so much to the extent that i actually feel guilty, being so selfless, so understanding, so sweet, so dumb and lastly so so fucking wonderful. Accepting what i really am, not even asking me to change. i hope all these wouldnt change in the near future.. All those things you did, i can feel it. my heart aint made of cold hard rock. just that i dont really express how i feel unless its those negative feelings. bet you know it too. being with you feels really awesome. very sweet feeling.. sweeter than sugar i suppose. feelings that i haven felt for a very very very long time. you're really such a big idiot. always have your ways to make me so speechless so happy. i really wonder what i did in my past life to deserve good guys like you and him. i guess you two are the only ones who can tolerate me & my flaws. i dont need it forever, just right now this moment would be enough. i got no idea if we would be together in the near future. but i assure you that all these moments, be it bad or good, i'll definitely wont take it for granted like i did in the past. i know happiness is within my grab but its just not the right time. the firewall in my heart hasnt disappear yet. plus i got no confidence too. seen too much bad examples. my cousin is one already. i really got scared by it. i dont wish to be like her. she's suffering a lot yet i cant do anything about it & my heart really feel pain for her when she's like that because of a guy like him.

i dont know what am i talking about. -.- hope you understand. i really dont know how to express how i feel. geez. another flaw. something that i know for sure, is im falling in love with you. in a very very slow pace though. (:

Updates tomorrow after i wake up. heh. byebye!

2009-09-26T14:31:00.004+08:00

Just before me heading out for training. i have decided to try out that job after jess's friend psychoing me for nearly half hour. im too soft hearted already. jeez. hopefully its as good as what he said to me. shall believe him for now. haha.

Yesterday was awesome excluding the screwed weather. received roses from sugar boy. Gotten myself a new wallet. Had Pasta de Waraku for dinner. saw F1 race from the place itself, the sound was effing loud. my ears was literally telling me that they're gonna burst when we headed down to somewhere nearer to the race track. ohgod. some random walking here and there. headed home aftermath cause someone have to work the next day.

as for the night before, that idiot surprised me by telling me he's outside my house in the middle of the night. i was about to sleep you know! my beauty sleep gone like that. but still he's sweet. always do stuff that i didnt expect him to do. retarded. best is not to expect anything from anybody. so when somebody did something sweet etc to you, you will feel extremely happy to the max, smiling like a retard. Had supper somewhere near my place. and then talk thru out the night at petal garden while waiting for his dad to fetch him back home. Wonder will he be that sweet still after long time.. hmmmm.. ohwell, we shall see how things goes still. heh.

Overdued photos. All food. =/

2009-09-22T00:00:00.011+08:00

OMFG! im done with my flash project! happy like mad. One project down down down! left with FYP which starts next term. i can enjoy my holidays without any worries. right now, im deciding if i should take up that job. Advantage: more Angmohs, less stress, higher pay than normal, free ride home. Disadvantage: Darker eye rings, Tired, body unhealthy, no time to sleep, bad skin condition.

i shall decide after i try out the training. hahahah. my skin condition just got recovered from the hectic IT fair which causes my bad skin condition. geez. im hungry~ waiting for mama to be back with my dinner. eating non stop today. tried the pan fried bun from tamp1. taste almost the same as xiaolongbao but its pan fried. shall buy that when im craving for xiaolongbao/not much money. did i mention that its awfully cheap? lol.

tomorrow shall be my resting day. hopefully it is. i wanna stay at home & rest.. saturday having outing. at clarke quay again. Singapore got nowhere fun at all. Ghim chi look so much cuter inside the mirror rather than real life. even jessalyn agree to it. hahah. & also i keep on forgetting he's actually 20years old. He's treating me after he get his pay! i gotta choose what i wanna eat. Monster also treating me right? in order to make up what you did yesterday. but still it takes more for me to forgive you. bleah. woaaaaah, happy like a small little girl. but but i dont want to get fat~ i really really really really cant wait for my pay to come! there's so much stuff i want to buy. Wallet, Water bottle is a must. saw Lily-of-the-Valley flower on web, its nice. i wonder if singapore has it. & blue roses doesnt exist! but i remember seeing blue roses before. its damn cool to have blue roses. hahaahah.

PART 2!

2009-09-21T23:41:00.013+08:00

Ten things you wish you could say to 10 different people right now. No names.

1. What im doing is none of your problem. so back off.

2. Get over him & get him instead.

3. Stop living in the past, take the first step out.

4. Oh dont be jealous. (:

5. you smell nice, me likey.

6. can we do this again?

7. Im fuck hell glad that you're out of my fucking life.

8. Hello? is my paycheck coming?

9. OMFG. I WANT TO GO SHOPPING!

10. its too early to tell.

Nine things about myself.

1. I'm anti-social towards most girls.

2. I eat a lot, way more that you can ever imagine.

3. I'm very fickle minded

4. I <3333 heights.

5. you seldom see me not talking.

6. I lovelove sleeping best.

7. I whine, complain, grumble, act cute a lot.

8. Sucker for directions.

9. I can either choose to save a lot or spend a lot.

Eight ways to win my heart.

1. Good sense of humor

2. Accept what i am & who i am.

3. Big/Small Surprises that caught me off guard.

4. Dont ever neglect me.

5. Be there for me even though i ask you fuck off.

6. Trust

7. Take note of the little things i said, best still able to make it happen.

8. Able to make me smile no matter what.

Seven things that cross my mind a lot.

1. love

2. Is my birthday coming soon?

3. If only I am a rich girl...

4. Happiness

5. Money.

6. What if......

7. what are we eating later?

Six things I do before I fall asleep.

1. Shower

2. Brush teeth

3. use computer.

4. Pee.

5. Lie on bed waiting to fall asleep.

6. Texting? talking on phone? thinking?

Five people who mean a lot.

1. Family.

2. Jessalyn

3. Selene

4. Soon to be filled.

5. Soon to be filled.

Four things you’re wearing right now.

1. Hoodie

2. School uniform

3. Lingerie

4. Jeans

Three bands/singers that you listen to currently.

1. Butch Walker

2. Lifehouse

3. Lesley Roy

Two things you want to do before you die.

1. Get married with my love one & live happily with no worries of $$

2. Travel around the world. esp Underwater World Hotel

One confession.

1. I don't know what to do after my studies.

Went out with Selene to flea market yesterday. both of us were late. the flea market isnt as good as the previous one i went to. saw nothing i like. kinda pricey too. selene finally bought her high waisted shorts after searching for dont know how long. tsk. waited for the god damn slow shutter bus. nearly an hour wait. Met selene's friends, benny & kingkong. had late lunch. aftermath head down to cine for the num slippers. the designs i want dont have my freaking size! was so upset about it until someone willing to help me buy one from T1 outlet. which makes me smile like a retard. blah. he just know how to make me smile, like always. hahahah. idiotic guy. went to granny's house after that chilling at coffee club. left lene, benny & KK there. they were studying. selene is finally studying. ahahahha.

right now, im doing my flash project. hard work. totally insane. i hate flash i swear to every god. im only done with scene 1. 4 more scenes to go. :( BUTBUTBUT im having Sushi Tei later! aunty's treat. thank goodness, most of my family members are food fanatic. hahah. only thing that make me happy today. geez. i shall go back mugging soon. sickening flash.

Pardon me for those photos. such a camwhorer i know i am. i still think i look cute/small little girl with plaids. heh.

2009-09-20T16:29:00.004+08:00

i know you would be reading this. this is specially written for you.

I'm feeling so god damn stupidly guilty, even up till now. i did something very very bad to someone. i feel so bad having to do this. i didnt expect that you're such a good person. i thought you're like any other people out there. didnt expect you to trust me so much. didnt expect that you aint angry with me despite me doing this to you. the more you say you arent angry with me, the amount of guiltiness i have inside me gets higher. i rather you scold, get angry, get pissed with me, make me cry. & not trying not make me feel less guilty, not trying to make me happy you know.. i feel ultimately bad about it i swear. literally feel like tearing myself apart, dig a huge hole and hide myself inside. if i got the chance, i wont wanna do it either, to anyone else. i cant help it, seen/heard too many things before my eyes & ears. so naturally there's a firewall built up inside me.

you always got me so speechless. surprised that how you can accept for who i am despite me having so much flaws. surprised how can you not get angry. surprised that how much you can really give in to me. surprised that how idoitic you can be at times. surprised that how you make me shut up look away from you after i text you even though im right beside you. surprised that how bloody disappointed you look when i said that which makes me feel like im the most sinful girl on earth. surprised that you actually cares about how i feel instead of how you feel. surprised that how you make me blushed so much. shall see if you can really accept for what i am in the near future. i seriously have no idea whats wrong with your brain. retarded ass. wonder why are you so retarded, i thought you very smart one.

A purple giacinto for you to shows how apologetic i am.

原谅我好不好? 我知错了.

memaafkan aku? then aku sayang awak many many! =x

2009-09-17T23:01:00.003+08:00

can you imagine he's a guy?
he's just so beautiful, dont you think so too? (:

Seems like Blogger is back in action again. in good working condition which is great. have been spending a lot lately. Non stop of shopping. makes me feel so happy. shopping able to make someone feel happy. haha. even though my pay is not here yet but its okay to spend still, am i right? hahahah. telling selene what im gonna buy & what i have bought. bet she love me more now, since i can pass her those dresses. hahahah.

And today is officially the last day of school! silly me, i thought next week was the last week of school not this week. hahhah. jessalyn's friend introduce us a job, hopefully we will get hire. so i got more money to spend. i love spending money like water. We only live once, so why not spend our life fruitfully. we cant bring money to hell cant we?

Feeling heart burn for my girl, her boyfriend isnt treating her well again. seriously, i hate this kind of guys. they should burn in hell. so that us girls wouldnt have to suffer anymore. its not that my girl cant find any good guy. since she chose you, you should treasure her more. stop making her give in/cry ALL the time for god sake. she having her Os you know. you should be more understanding. you aint the only one being so effing busy. but what to do, my girl's world revolve around him. tsk. another reason why i cant commit. idiotic guys. should have given them one head instead of two.

lastly,

MY DONG DONG GIVE ME FLOWERS. AHHHHHHH! 好可爱!

waiting for that idiotic retarded monster to call me. HAHAHAAH. im feeling sleepy again. geez. turning in soon. goodnight! pictures after i get from shaoyu, promise. heh

2009-09-15T23:53:00.002+08:00

Just got back home not long ago. School technically sucks. was having major headache most of the time. but at least i get to talk to the cutie boy. hahahah. went out of meet marcus in the evening. watched Gamer. not really nice. maybe perhaps i was too hungry. at least marcus made an effort to explain whats going on to me. i was whining most of the time during the movie. Had Cafe Cartel for dinner which is totally not filling at all. he wanted to cab home but i told him not to. see i so good! help him save money. hahaha.

tomorrow school again, cant wait for the bloody holidays to start. and i can start earning some money during the holidays. maybe get away from sg for the weekend or something. we shall see. im turning in. eyes are closing. tomorrow shall be a better day! :D cause one day closer to friday. im soooo gonna watch the ugly truth. blah.

2009-09-15T02:22:00.003+08:00

Someday someone is gonna step into your life

make you realise why everyone else didn't work out.

i should get this into my brain asap. yada yada, getting it into my brain soon.

I hope that someday you find an amazing boy.

The kind of boy who means everything to you and makes you want to spend every moment of your time with him.

The kind of boy who keeps you up at night, just thinking about his charming smile, and when you finally fall asleep, he’s all you dream about.

I hope he’s the first thing to cross your mind when you wake up in the morning.

I hope he changes you in a way you could never understand, yet you know it’s for the better.

I hope he’s the kind of boy you would practically die for.

The kind of boy who could make you cry, even though you’d never admit it.

The kind of boy who makes you want to go out & do something special, something that means everything to the both of you.

The kind of boy you can have silly fights with, then kiss & make up, & hold her in your arms as if you’re falling in love all over again.

I hope you make memories with him you never forget.

I hope he’s your world, and what you have with im is nothing less than perfection.

how sweet. geez. but i changed the girl to boy. haha. im tired. jessalyn cant sleep too. seems like there's quite a number of people who cant sleep. wonder why. i cant effing sleep. im effing hungry. eating air cause barney is too lazy for supper.

2009-09-14T12:18:00.009+08:00

Let the Pictures do the talking. more pictures to come. (:

DIE LIAO. i saw a lot of stuff that i wanna buy!! paycheck not here yet and here i am spending so much already. tsk. and and im talking to the cutie boy. omfg. i didnt expect to see such a cutie in singapore. one of the cutest ever i seen. even sister & jamie said so. sister even go gah gahing over him. WHY IS HE SO EFFING CUTE?! now im talking to him. so kawai~ got dimples somemore!! headache sort of gone already. hahahahahha.

tomorrow flash phase. mentally prepare to fail already. i totally suck at it. which idiot invented flash. hate him/her. make us students go fml. tsk. IT fair is fun after all, subtract those customers, standing etc. heh. cant wait for the next IT fair. hahahah. i need more money~

2009-09-11T00:40:00.002+08:00

FIRST TIME WORKING IN IT FAIR. NEARLY WENT CRAZY. ESP THOSE STANDINGS & THOSE FISHES WHICH I NEARLY CAUGHT. BLOODY HELL. AT LEAST I STILL GET TO SELL SOME. HAHAHAHAH.

I'M MF TIRED. JUST GOT HOME AFTER MEETING KHAI FOR MY BAKWA. FEEL SO HAPPY AFTER EATING IT. OTHER 3DAYS OF HELL. FML. FTJ. HOPEFULLY I HAVE MORE SALES TOMORROW. SHALL WEAR RED. HAHAHAHAHA. BYEBYE.

2009-09-08T13:05:00.009+08:00

BARNEY IS BAAAAAAAAAAACK FROM PHUKET! he didnt do dread locks which im quite happy about it. cause somehow he will look better with his wavy hair of his. & he's telling me all those stuff that happened there. make me so jealous of them. blah. like how burnt he became, how those ladyboys flash their boobs to them, how the girls act in the club, surf, banana boat, did oil massage which he says is fucking shiok. THEY EVEN WENT SNORKELING!! jealous to the max. they must feel like they're in heaven. unlike sg, everything expensive. thumbs down for that.

next one would be clement cousin, heading to malaysia to visit his friend. walao, at least they get step out of SG. i dont, last time i went overseas was last bloody year. boohoo. at least clem will buy something back for me. bikinis, imagine him choosing. hahahah. funny. well, prove that he loves me this cousin of his other than his gf. heh. love you too cousin!

did those flash labs in sch, hate flash so much now. apparently, went to tampines just for pizza hut actually. but walked around and decided to catch a movie. The time traveler's wife.

almost 2hours, it's good. just that jessalyn tan is effing noisy, kept bombing me with qsns. as if i read that book before. i love almost every part of the movie esp the main actor, he's damn suave i tell you. with the goatee, he's practically something to die for. me heart guys with goatees esp those who appeals to me. goatees fetish. ahahaha. bet the book will be so much better, gonna read it soon. yay!

DON'T YOU THINK SO TOO?!

went home after movie got changed head out of house straight to simlim square. for that god damn training. sad to say, not much male part timers are handsome lads which made me so upset. geez. everyone love to see pretty things, mind you. imagine how noisy is the shop, 30plus people in it. the size of the shop is comparable to the size of mine & sister's room combined together i think.

the so called leader, steven was funny though his english is those cannot make it kinds. i think i talked too much cause steven somehow kept asking me qsns then ask me stop answering so that other ppl could answer. retarded leader. hahahahah. went straight home after that. was hungry to the extent that i thought i would faint at any point of time.

next few movies im gonna watch.

Gamer

The ugly Truth

Coco Before Chanel.

As for today, collected those online loots. ate breakfast, went for mark lee lessons. Bused to AMK after school. both of us slept thru out the journey. got our eyebrows trimmed. before it look hideous, after it look beautiful. haha. jess did her long wanted manicure. the boss was very pretty. both of us jaw dropped when we heard that she's nearly 27years old. went back to jess's house, had dinner. Found out that she really look prettier at home rather than outside. damn ridiculous. went home. gonna sleep soon. No idea why i feel so tired today. i need a neck massage. going to head back to sabai thai massage soon.

I'll be working in the upcoming IT fair on this thur. come find me okay?! dont buy also accompany me chit chat a bit lah. almost 12hours inside, can die one leh! worse still, for 4days straight & standing for 12hours. total goner. how am i gonna cope with the coldness there. ohmygod. hopefully i get to make great friends there. the first girl friend i know yesterday working on the 3rd day. me sad. sigh.

AIYAH. take one step at a time. shall see how on thursday. im heading to bed soon. neck aching like insane. lengthy post. byebye! (:

2009-09-01T00:48:00.005+08:00

Plan to head out with khai but seems like he didnt slept for the whole night. so plan change & decided to head down to geylang serai for some yummy dendeng instead after he break his fast. My cute little happy look like one white lion after she had her bath. running around the house looking for food. geez.

A phone call from dad & my phone is changed. not to the one i wanted of course. ohwell, since the phone is faulty. might as well let daddy trade in. but the phone im using now is totally not to my liking at all! it doesnt have a function called Saved Messages. Stupid LG phone. Might get samsung phone instead since dad's jet look awesome. at least for now. and at least it does have a function called My Folders to save all those messages. I'm not interested in LG phones anymore unless there's a function to save messages. blah. enough ranting.

Mum bought a carton of root beers back home BUT without ice cream. how nice. root beer taste best with ice cream for god's sake. craving for that now!

Surf the net, found some weird stuff. like weird laws around at world. like Shoes size = Penis size. Wonder if its real. hahahaha.

Lastly, my pictures! :P

2009-09-01T00:18:00.002+08:00

What you're chasing for might not be worth chasing for.

New blogskin. Plain & simple. i guess no one wont be complaining about my skin on IE form already. tsk. waste a lot of time on doing the stupid picture above. luckily it turn to be awesome. i had more pictures but lazy to rearrange and stuff. so leave it as it is right now, wait till im sick of the picture & i shall change it!

Stayed at home for 2days. it's great. i can save money & slim down at the same time. wont get any temptation of buying any food or clothes. i have way more clothes than i can wear. some of them are even brand new. but but but flea market on thur, since its flea market so why not? hahahahaha. flea market are cheap, i can cure my shopping craves and wont burn my pocket. one stone kill 2 birds. heh.

i'm going for a hair cut later on in the evening ! E-X-C-I-T-E-D!!! new hair cut. hopefully my hair stylist advice would be good or else i think im gonna stick to my old hair style. not that brave to chop off my hair just like jess did. no idea where she find that bloody courage to CHOP off her hair. long post. nothing better to do. chatting with barney whose back from genting. lucky asshole. after genting go thailand. bloody hell. having supper with him later or wed before he flys. yay! &&&&&& ANNA GOT HERSELF INKED. IM JEALOUS! I ALSO WANT!!! shall wait till i design that particular design out first.

i need get so many things done.
- Get myself inked.
- Get a long term part time job.
- New hair cut
- Revamp my room
- lose weight. motivation(VS models)
- save money.

okay. i go find my inspirations of my tattoo design already. chaoz. bye! :)

2009-08-29T23:26:00.009+08:00

Yesterday's Flea market was great. Bought tons of stuff at a steal!!! esp jessalyn tan. perhaps i shall stop shopping online & shop at flea market instead. heh. able to buy those high end stuff at prices that you wont ever imagine it to be. hopefully Selene able to find a bit of time to go to the upcoming flea market. lol. if not, she's gonna hear me telling her what i bought from there happily. hahahaha.

the only bad thing about flea market is IT'S REALLY REALLY HOT. all of us was sweating like mad dogs. i cant help but to whine whine & whine about the screwed weather. i reckon its one of the hottest days in singapore yesterday. Aircon is the one of the greatest invention ever & tissue too. without them i think all of us would practically die.

Tried Self timer while waiting for jess to be done. the photos isnt that bad. nice nice me like. lol. only thing is i have to bend down in order to see my face. -.- mirror too low.

Had her eye on that demin vest.

One of the scariest steps i ever walked.

somehow she looks like some celebrity. =x

Dont kill me, jessalyn. XD

I think we look alike. o.o

no idea why we got the same pose.

lastly,

isn't he cuteeee?! lol

2009-08-29T00:36:00.002+08:00

all plans was canceled cause khai's friend didnt pick up the call. lol. he got me rushing cause i got less than an hour to get everything done. i should have take my time instead. so we decided to catch a movie. wanted to watch the proposal but final destination was the chosen one. the timing doesnt suits us & he had to break fast on time. see i so understanding! hahahah. the seller did a good deed by letting me in even after checking my IC. heh. the movie was gross. i kept on OMG OMG OMFG all the way. khai was laughing like insane. sadistic guy just like joel when we watched district 9. tsk.

went to geylang serai after that. the so called malay bagua tasted really really awesome. even better than the chinese's ones. had Arnold's for dinner. his treat. i was totally broke to the max. bleah. to think that we actually have to reserve seats & waited an hour for those food. aint worth it at all. walked around the pasar till i cant tahan the heat anymore & we went home. i think im gonna bring jess & sister there to try the dendeng. tender, juicy, yummy. hahah. bought ramly burger for supper. sigh, there goes my diet~ 2 perfumes caught my eye, wonder which to buy. no harm getting more right? although i've already got 2. heh. it really smell nice! even khai said so.

2009-08-27T21:47:00.004+08:00

Blogger is bonkers seriously. most of time is screwed, badly screwed i mean. School, projects, boring. few night ago, went to film the final year project again. since the first one cannot make it. went to geylang together with jess, sister & siewting, had a hard time finding those food stalls. after that, walked around finding more food. bought some organic jelly which taste really great!

had those tikos staring at us like they never seen girls before in their whole effing life. there's whole lots of chickens for them to stare at yet they stared at us which is almost totally covered with clothes. bloody hell. irritating eyes of theirs. if i have the chance, i would dig their eyes out for sure. found the legendary smelly beancurd after we decided to go home. of course, had some smelly beancurd first. siewting & sister cant tahan the smell. they said its awful. but from what i smell, isn't that smelly after all. we practically walked from one end to the other end of geylang. went to geylang serai for a walk. inside the tent was WOW. was sweating as though we were at the peak of some volcano. bused home after that as sister had school next day. saw one malay girl on the bus, real fair & pretty. she has a nice smile. haha

as for today, edited the video. had vivian's lesson instead of Mr ho. she explained to us the IG project. finally have HW to do. storyboard to be handed by wednesday. tsk. felt very sleepy during her lesson. i wonder if her voice has the power of making people feel sleepy & on the verge of falling asleep. did tons of rubbish actions to jessalyn. i think i was just tiny winy high. hahahahah. she kept texting her kelvin & doesnt wants to let me see the texts! confirm got something on!!!!

Barney gave me a link regarding this photographer flying around the world taking awesome photos. she can really take great pictures i swear. she's god damn rich too, imagine having 15K per shoot. how can she not be rich?! plus plus she's only 21years old. i want to be like her too. blah. enough said. Barney is going Malaysia over the weekend. & on the 3rd, he's going on bagpacking in thailand for 5days! how awesome is that. i cant tag along cause it would be too troublesome since i would be the only girl there. tsk. bagpacking like very fun can!! walao walao walao. i want go. :( im jealous. roars

tomorrow would be going to expo i guess. accompany khai to check out the rates. another one flying off soon. idiot. then geylang serai after breaking fast. but but but 3pm a bit too early leh!! i want my sleep. &&&& i wont be having school till wed. YAY YAY YAY!! :D 3weeks holidays are coming. happy~ i miss tons of people like Selene, Fafa, Jared(see i miss you k! you confirm never miss me one!) may, Davin, Donovan & obviously you too, aiyah lazy to list out already laaaah. see you guys soon! die die must go out with me at least once k. heh.

Overdued pictures. lol.

2009-08-22T00:20:00.005+08:00

I damn sad lor can! every time got flea market, none of you guys are free. pfffft. angry already laaaaa! :(

currently, i got nothing better to do. lazy to watch my dramas. i think i should learn how to put make up. oh man, im a late bloomer. nevertheless, i would still be ultra lazy to put on make up. to think waking up one hour earlier, sleeping one hour later just to put & remove make up. buay tahan, rather have my face naked. sleep is the most important thing to me ever. other than money. i so effing broke now can. buy buy buy, eat eat eat. no save save save. bloody hell. no work already, still spend money like water.

i need a job desperately i swear. someone give me a job please. i dont want those jobs that will make me gain weight though. heh. joel called & asked me out just now, rejected him. too lazy to head out. at least im not the laziest of all. joel should be crowned. i think im getting fat, but my jeans & shorts not tight. clothes still can fit. irritating. but still, im gonna lose some weight! dont care, must lose. i feel fucking fat. VS models make me jealous. i want a new wallet, sick & tired of my current wallet already. i want a new hair cut too. got a rough idea what kind of hairstyle i want already. WALAO, ALL NEED MONEY. expect for losing weight. can save a bit i guess since im going on diet. provided i resist those temptations of yummy food.

i think im talking stuff that has no link. told you, i got nothing to do. bored.
AIYA I SHALL GO SLEEP NOW.
LET ME HAVE GOOD DREAMS PLEASE. :D

Pissed. cause he cant find it.

Finding the Frontier building anxiously.

taking a break from splitting those candies.

Finding the color candies in process

Look closely. his face is buried in the bag.

had a cigg before the movie starts.

you said hello, inside me im screaming i love you

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